Cat out the bag

Today I found out the rather embaressing, but mostly funny news that pretty much everyone from my old school knew about the blog so, big shout out to them!

I was thinking it was a long time ago I made an AT THIS MOMENT post so yeah here we go.
Eating: Nothing, just had a redbull.
Listening to: Goodfellas on in the background with Boyfriend and Yoel watching.
Thinking: Still shocked about the fact that people know about the blog. I love the blog and all my readers but once you know you're friends are watching without you knowing it kinda feels like being watched while taking a shower.

Back from Reading weekend.

You guuuuuys.
I'vee missed you!

So ok, I'm back from Reading festival now. It was pretty much amazing. Exception of slightly shitty weather. But other than that, the music, the food, the people. All awsome.

At this moment of time I'm sitting at the dining at a private spa club whom boyfriend has a membership at. What better way of getting cleaned up after 4 days of dirty smelly clothes on my back. I can't believe I'm back in london. Feels so surreal. I kept waking up in the tent confused over where the hell I was. But that could also be the affect of all the weed in the air.

Ok so I just wanted to give out a shout to you all and tell you blog is back to normal now.
Reading pictures will come up later on tonight.

Alive

I'm alive guys!
Really nice flight and my school interview went perfectly!
Right now I'm writng through boyfriends iPhone but ill try to sort out the blog application on my google phone.
Love you loads! Btw it will be much easier to fallow me on Twitter for the next 4 days. Link at the sidebar!

Linda I'll miss you

No words needed.
She knows, I know.
My departure is ending this summer for both of us.
A summer full of things only me and her will ever understand.


I'll finish off with a video of me and her dancing through the summer.
Now I got some more packing to do, then its goodbye sweden.

Readingggg

So tomorrow I fly back to london.
I don't really get to spend much time in london because straight after my school interview we're heading for Reading festival. Excited much! The music and the experience in all its glory but mostly I can't wait to see all my friends. Haven't seem them in forever.


But now as for the music there, the lineup is looking pretty descent.
Click on picture for larger view.

Print it

Went to the bank and had time for a small shopping whip.
Some tshirts, red lipstick and these from H&M.
Snapped.

The Fashion Spot

Goooooodmorning everyone.

I got terrible terrible sniffles and my head hurts but thats ok because this morning I finnaly received an invitation code to the fashion community site - The fashion spot.
So I'm really pleased with that, their forums are one of the largest in the world.

Now I have to go to the bank, unshowered and looking like hell.
Laters.

Sequin spin

Back from le town.
Found out I have another whole day before I leave so I didn't feel as sentimental as I should have.

Either way, firstly I met up with my dear friend Sigge.
Her boyfriend just bought her shoes and I was mildly jelous.
Then we headed to a vintage store thats inside topshop here called Beyond Retro.
And ohmygod it was amazing. I found this crazy beautiful sequin top for as little as 20 pounds.
Thank god they have Beyond Retro in London aswell.

The perfect gift

From my mum.

Todays heath

Its so hot outside today. I'm probably the only one complaining about it.
Screw this, I want fall to come! Today is my last day in sweden so I'm off to town to meet up with some friends and to burn some much needed cash.

Just another reason to love Tom Chaplin

Look at those shoes!
Good boy.

New boots

My boyfriend might kill me now but I had to have these.
Pretty penny gone now, but who cares I have my boots.

I love you, even on a monday

I'm off to pick up my passport and then meet up with L.
2 more days. Then I'm off to London.

But before I go, here is my favourite song. I will never get tired of this song, been listening to it on repeat for MONTHS now. Everytime I put it on my whole body tingles.




Also, I'm loving your stories for the post below here. I totally forgot to tell you when I feel that way. Basicly everytime I see someone I used to have a thing with. What's worse is that I run the other diraction when I do.

Have you ever?

Before I go to bed I have a question for you all.
Have you guys ever been in a situation where you feel like your heart is going to come out your ass?
You know, the rush of panic/excitment/shock at the same time.
If you have, tell me about it!

sleep time

Guys I'm so tired I feel like throwing my macbook out the window and then jump after it.
I need to sleep, NOW.
Just need to find a way to turn of True Blood.

Kill me, kill me now!

Excuse the absence last night.
I was in such rush didn't have the time to write that I was going to a friends house for a little mingle. Nice to see them all one last time before I get back to london this coming week. Afterwards around 3 in the night me and Linda were visited by some other friends that needed to crash.
So all in short, its 1 in the afternoon and I haven't gone to sleep yet. I.want.to.die.

But all those depressing thoughts aside, its a loveley morning!

Real life conversation

Mums boyfriend: Eum why does it look like a shoe store in Monika's room?
Mum: Oh let her, they make her happy!

I'm glad my mother understands me.
Now I'm off to town to...buy another pair.

Watermelon Breakkiee

Around the head

Last night wasn't as much of a hellish experience as I thought it would be.
Sure 2/3 of my cousins were missing but whatever the one that was there was enough.
Although I already got my presents before ( Macbook, Camera etc) I still got something really nice from my mum which I'll show you later.

Either way this morning I had issues sleeping. Woke up at 11 even though I went to bed around 4 last night. The main reason was because of this stupid song that kept going around in my head

Around Te World - Daft Punk

Hell here I come

Not in the mood AT ALL.
Atleast there is alot to drink.

Good boy Alex

Everytime I see a swedish actor/singer/anything in media basicly I feel an overwhelming pride coming over me. The hottie above, Alexander Skarsgård is swedish which if you watch True Blood you already knew. What gets me though is that everything he is in he insist on speaking swedish and then some other american actor tries to do it aswell.
I remember watching Lady Gagas - Paparazzi music video. No one told me about the swedish dialog so when it came on I was litterly in tears from laughing.
But whatever, he makes me proud the same way his dad Stellan Skarsgård did so its all good.

Friday post

Goodmorniing
Today is the day of my dreaded persian type of 18th dinner. I turned 18 almost 2 months ago but they insisted on having it now before I leave Sweden to go back to London. But before that I have a good couple of hours to continue watching True blood. Almost through with the first season now.

Tonight I'm wearing

Polish

Randomly picked up a greyblackish nail polish from H&M today.
Suprisingly good quality!

Goodmorning

I'm not feeling on top right now.
Was up late late late watching true blood. Still not catched up with the rest of the world yet.

Today I have to make a trip to town for some nessecity shopping and then back to isolating myself and watch the rest of the series.
You know what song I have in my head all night?
The intro song for the series, I'm loooving it.

True blood

So I know I'm REAALLY late with this one this but I just started watching True blood.
I can understand the hype about this thing now, its amazing. But then again its from the creators of six feet under and has vampires in it. Allthough I thought I'd seen all the diffrent takes on how vampires are now but this one is really diffrent and original. Besides it having Ryan Kwanten running around shirtless most of the time adds extra points to it. I've had a thing for him ever since he starred in Summerland back in the days.

On the floor

I'm really weird like this.
I I relax the most when I sit on the floor in my bedroom.

Goodmorning

Just had some breakfeast with Linda.

Spent the night at her house last night. Not a good idea because we sat up really late and she has her first day of school today. Thank god for 3 more weeks of holiday for me.
When I get home in an hour I will probably go straight to bed. I have had such lack of sleep this week my bones are starting to hurt. Never a good sign.

Also one question.
If you guys met one of your childhood friends, would you be nice and feel like you were still friends or just say that you no longer knew eachother?
Because last night me and L were just joking around with one of our old friends. I admitt we made one or two jokes about his current girlfriend but they were harmless and anyone could see that we were joking. Besides what we said was true because his new girlfriend was one of the most rude and bitchy people I have ever met. Basicly we all met her when we went to that summer house a couple of weeks back and she was walking around not talking to me or L and expecting for everyone to serve her while she walked around with 3 layers of makeup. If my boyfriend would behave that way especially at a place like that where he is meeting my friends and family I would kill him. Thats not the point though because we never actually said that to our friend last night. Either way our friend went crazy on my ass and finished the conversation mid way by blocking me. I think that just lacks respect for old friendships.
Sorry I just had to get some rage off my chest. All better now :)

Brown Racoon

The headmaster called.
The interview went well, I was so nervous I thought I would pass out. Being over the phone is tricky because you can't see the other person on the lines facial expressions but I managed to get him to laugh twice so thats good. Then I got to speak to the head of psychology and media studies and set a chance to go in and meet with them aswell next week when I'm back in England. FUN.

Either way tonight I'm heading to meet a couple of friends. Even though I feel like taking a nap. Here's a little outfit thingie, been too long. As always the image is clickable for bigger version.

Late call

Gooooodmorning everyone!

I have been sitting by the phone for the past hour and half waiting for my new headmaster to call. I'm having a phone interview but about an hour ago his assistant called to inform me he was stuck in a meeting. Great.

Today's plans are doing nothing, well part from meeting up with L. I can't believe I won't have her in England. One week left and then I'm gone. Kinda sad...
But let's not think about that now and focus on what we should do tonight. Maybe a romantic dinner? Maybe a little movie and some tender love and care?

That smell

Have you ever found a guy that smelled like a batch of freshly made buns?
If you have, don't let him go. Hold on to him and hide him under your bed, whenever you feel down you just bring him out and hug him taking in the bakery smell.

Now whenever I feel that smell flooding through my senses I get a tingle in my stomach and a big smile on my face. Partly because of the aroma smell that would make any mouth water, and then because of that remenission.

The vintage blazer

Failed plans

I had plans to go out tonight.
But my body didn't agree and gave me a massive headache. You know the feeling right before you get a cold. That one. So I just walk around like a zombie feeling like death awaits me

So now that those plans failed I'm just going to stay home, watch movies and stuff my face with chocolate instead. But not to worrie, pics of the vintage blazer will be up either way later on this evening.

Zanessa to be wed

I don't know if you heard but according to diffrent sources Vanessa Hudgens have made an "official" announcement that her and Zac Efron are getting married.

Firstly, I'm against marrige at young age. You just change so much during the years that its a really low shot on the marrige surviving. I'm sure you all have stories of someone somewhere married when they were young and are still together after 50 years but lets face the facts that back then it was more common to get married younger and divorce was a struggle specially from the womans aspect because most of them were stay home wives. I mean why not just stay together without the wedding part for another couple of years? Whats the rush unless you have a terminal illness.

But that's not my point here. The point is, there are gazzillion of comments from people saying :
"Omygosh I'm so happy now, I KNEW it, Zanessa foreverrrr!!!"
That's bothering me the most. I mean.....why? Why are you SO god damn happy? Good for them and all but you're not benefiting from it any way? Why is it your complete obsession of two celebrities being together? OR like the ones rooting for Rob and Kristen. They aren't actual Bella and Edward ending up together. That's fiction! They wont have semi vampire babies....

Vintage shopping

Hello!

I had to rush out this morning. Checking out some place for a party on friday. Not really looking forward to it but whatever, persian party in my honour so whatever.
After that I met up with L for some vintage shopping. Found a really nice blazer, will put it up later on when I show tonights outfit.

Playing hotel

After 3 hours we gave up by calling me the winner of the game.
What can I say, I'm good at making business.
Linda came last with barrowing money from me and still having to sell property.

Now I'm thinking...movie? And food, starving. Haven't had anything to eat since breakfeast this morning.

Breakfeast

Chocolate pancakes on toast and home made banana milkshake.
Good start in the morning!

11 hours, close enough!

So I slept for 11 hours, good enough. I wasn't having the most pleasent dreams anyways so I was actaully pretty happy about being woken up by the phone.

Today its actually pretty sunny outside.
But I have a maaahuuusssive pile of clothes that needs to be folded and put in the closet. Then its some more L loving time. We sat up playing boardgames lat night and didn't even get to finish it so we have to continue with it today.

Goodmorning to everyone

12 hour sleep

Its 3 and I'm going to bed.
L came over for some chitchat and loving but now I'm really tired.
Ill speak to you all in 12 hours, thats right I am planning to get up in 12 hours.

Goodnight!

My love is frozen in time

I just got back from a rumble in the storage.

Witth the intention of getting a boardgame I ended up sitting there for hours reading through old diaries, folders and calenders.
The one thing that was very clear throughout all of it was one thing.
I used to love with all my heart.

Before I became this ice cold person. Year 2007 I loved my friends, I loved my boyfriend and I loved my life. Then things fell apart and I learnt to not put my trust in anyone. But reading back now it seemed like a nice thing, to care for someone that deeply. I can't control it anymore, I just don't fall in love and I don't let any of my friends getting too close.
I hate the people who did this to me, who changed me this way.
For now I'm happy this way because being naive only gets you down in the end. Atleast at this point in life. But I hope one day someone changes me back.

One of the most beautiful songs

Everything about this song is beautiful
The beach, her eyes, his voice and the lyrics.

Pass central

Back from the passport central.
Third one this year, they must think I'm a criminal soon.
But for this one I got to do a fingerprint thing, that was fun.
Top it off, my unbrushed hair on the picture. Funziiis. Sorry guys I'm just really tired right now I don't know what I'm on about.

Ha, also I have to say I saw alot of girls walking the "walk of shame" this morning. Its pretty intresting being up early on a saturday morning in town.

Goodnight!

Turns out you actually can do alot in this town even without an ID.
Well if you know the right people that is. Not that I think I do but my friends do and I just use them for all its worth.

Went from park - the festival Way out West - Burger King - Mcdonalds - Modesty bar - Keybar nightclub. And now BED. Early start tomorrow, and then....maybe out again? Just maybe...

Changed plans

Looks like were heading for some event in the park THEN bar.
Either way, wish you all a lovely friday!

Modesty

Well due to lost wallet my plans tonight are very limited.

Basiclly sit in a bar with friends.
Kinda sucks but that's the price I have to pay I guess. I tried calling the stupid place again today but they weren't picking up their phone so its back to trying tomorrow.
Top it all off, my hair is being extremley difficult today.

Do me a favour?

Can anyone buy me these of topshop, Uk size 5 and then send them to me as a delayed birthday gift? Thank you!

Just woke up

Woke up by the door bell, damn you post.

Anyways I guess I had to get up either way.
Get away from that really really bad dream I had. I can't remember exacly what it was but just that I was skiing and people I really didn't want to see were there too.

Either way now I'm jumping in the shower to wake my self up.
Then a banana cereal breakkie!

Never watch a movie with L

So my dear friend L came over tonight for a bit of the old boardgames playing

But when she saw that I had the movie Twilight she forced me into watching it with her instead. This being my 10th time seeing that movie. I have to say ther are ALOT of flaws in it, I'm not talking as in it not fallowing the books facts because I haven't read them but as in just general bad camera work and bad acting. All movies have this its pretty much unescapable but being a media studies kid I have a better eye for these things. Another thing that bothered me, L can't shut the fuck up. She made a comment every 20 seconds...



Speeeaking of twilight.
I have a little secret regarding that topic
BUT I can't say until like next month.

Cleaning lady

So what can I do on my day in?
Clean my closet maybe? At the moment all my clothes are on the floor.
Maybe plan outfits for days to come, not that I'm actually going anywhere. I'm punishing myself for losing the wallet and not stepping out this weekend.

At the moment I'm just grooving to MJ and thinking about what to eat.
Also I was thinking, why did they never make a music video to "wanna be startin something" ?

From Lost wallet to eating in the car at 5 in the morning

Still no wallet to be found.
I just don't get how I lost it, we litterly just got in and after 5 minutes it was gone!
I tried calling them a minute ago but they just told me to call back tomorrow when they were finished cleaning the place.

But other than the wallet story it was a pretty good night. We went to a club called Deep for a live peformance.
Litterly everyone I knew was there. It was so crowded especially when the singer entered the stage to sing but luckily we befriended the tourmanager so we got to sit at their lounge and watch. Afterwards when we were walking towards the trains we met one of Nilos friends Camelia and her friend Tina. They offered to give us a lift home and obviously we snabbed on to it. On the way home we bought some take away so we sat in the car eating and talking for a good couple of hours. I think it was sometimes around 6 when I finally crashed in bed.

Today I just need to go register a new passport and maybe call to the club again but other than that I'm planning to stay in and take it easy.

Lost my wallet

Someone either took it, or I must have been the worlds biggest idiot.
Thats all

Middle parts

I'm doing middle aprtings again
JUST FOR NOURAS SAKE

The celebrations continue

Tonight one of my favourite stand up comidiens Özz Nujen is doing a show.
I'm so excited for that, If only my number one favourite Shan Atci also was there...
Afterwards it will probably be a couple of beers and then head home, I'm rather tired today.

Outift today is really simple, just a black dress and boots.

Here it is!

The questions and answers video, sorry for the crappy quality though.

Where is my brush?

Goodmorning!

I'm having a brush search here at the moment. Seem to have missplaces both my brushes! And my hair is a total mess. I'm recording the questions and answers video today and I'd rather not look like a hairmonster. But yeah today I will post that for you lovelies to watch.

Laleh on crack

Hello lovlies.

I'm back from the town of gothenburg.
The festival today was rather short lived, went on two of the conserts with the swedish singers Veronica Maggio and Laleh.

The funniest one was Laleh though.
I don't know if she was smoking crack but sometimes during her songs she just went mjfgsaoghpjm. By the third time she did that me and my friend Linda were laughing on the ground, at one point I was thinking if it was possible to die of laughing.
But it was quite a shame because she does have some good songs, my favorite being this one.

Gothenburg festival

Ok Im off now.
Its the town annual festival and everyone is out.
Ciao!

Bad morning

I'm just so angry right now.
I just received a letter stating I couldn't change my surname to my mums because I didn't include the second bit of my mums surname. We waited 4 weeks for that!? And now I have to pay for a new plane ticket home aswell because the one I already booked is under my other surname. I hate sweden right now.

Restless

I think I'm going to watch a movie tonight but I'm not sure which one.
Any suggestions?

Worst at the Teen choice awards

Originally I was doing a best dressed at the Teen choice awards but I had some real troubles finding anyone that actually pulled a nice outfit I decided to go with the not-so-nice list.

Alexis Bledel.
Whats up with the bad color combination and the really ill fitting dress?
Not good!


Kim kardashian.
Decided to go blond and looks like a bad J.lo lookalike


Ed Swedwick
Put his cute black ballerinas on today!


Taylor Lautner.
Looks like he is trying too much.